By now I’ve written and deleted the start to this post about five times. I’ve tried to keep up with the blog and obviously i have not been successful. Today as i get a new name and attempt to re-do this entire thing i thought it’d be a good idea to start off with the most honest post i can give you all. So why hasn’t the blog work so far? Why haven’t I been keeping up with it?
The truth? I’ve created so much content but at the end of the day, I didn’t like any of the content i created and for one simple reason: i didn’t like me. You know whats funny? You ask anyone who knows me to describe me and the number one answer you’ll get will be confident. I’ve always been that person, to start conversations, to make jokes, and to wear anything i like no matter what anyone would say about it. All of that was the main reason why i wanted to create this, to connect and to show people through fashion and makeup and lifestyle tips ways to express themselves. So here i come, open blog, get a name, advertise a little on IG and FB and i’m all set, next step – content.
I started taking pictures of the fashion, of the makeup, of everything and i made what i can say today was my absolute mistake, i started to compare them to other people. Then i started reading and convinced myself that i couldn’t do it because i needed a certain camera, or lighting, or whatever other stuff we read online. Well after waiting all this time going back and forth and talking myself in and out of it a thousand times i can tell you that it was never about camera or lighting because i wasn’t comparing picture quality, i was comparing me. Is easy to convince yourself that you shouldn’t be doing certain things because you don’t look a certain way. This is when i realize that without noticing i had allow strangers to put me into a category and i had stayed there like i didn’t have a choice.
Ladies is easy to get yourself down nowadays if you’re not perfect, and in a world where no one is really perfect there are a lot of us left feeling insecure. I was comparing myself to all this amazing bloggers that we see everywhere and how a makeup would look on a certain picture and say well mine is not as good so why would i post it? And i just kept going and going until i put myself so down that the idea i had and the dream i was reaching for just sounded silly even to myself. When you question yourself and who you are specially in the world we live in today, you kind of lose yourself and that is without a doubt what i did.
After all of this how and why am I trying this again? Luckily just as there are so many bloggers and YouTubers that we don’t look anything like, there are thousands that do. I started looking for ladies that looked like me, and were putting themselves out there and looking beautiful while doing it. I read about being confident, and loving yourself which i had never had a problem with but had lost so much of without realizing it. Now after a while, rediscovering myself, and learning how to love who I am once more, why do this again? Well to ANYONE that’s out there going through that process i want to be what those ladies where to me. The more of us out there, the easier we would be to find right? The internet can be a place where you can find your tribe, it does not have to be a negative place and that’s what i want to add, positivism.
Hopefully i’ll get a lot of people along with me, to share all the things that i love but even if i don’t even if i only reach one person is so worth it to me. So this now will be a journey of learning everyday to love ourselves, and to be comfortable with who we are no matter size, age, or anything else. So if you’re looking for style, self-love, positive vibes, and fun times, welcome lets be best friends. This is for EVERYONE, the girl that just now is discovering her style, the one changing it, or the one that is just looking. I’ll be posting pictures, writing posts, and maybe in the future videos.
All and all let’s shop together, grow together, and learn from each other.
WELCOME TO HIGHLIGHTS AND HEELS!!!!